Author/Composer: Top Barry

無力感在把眼淚一點一點吞噬 Helplessness swallows tears bit by bit
空曠的街道早沒了一點聲 Empty streets were long silenced
那天回到我們倆熟悉的城市 That day I returned to the city so familiar to us
馬路上關閉的燈有一半熟悉一半生 The dimmed lights on the streets were half familiar and half strange
酒精讓我一半溫熱一半冷 Alcohol makes me half hot and half cold
可你扮演著成熟 But you pretend to be mature
我一半沒感覺一半疼 I’m half un-feeling and half feeling for you
就最後變成一半猜忌一半問 At the end it becomes half suspicion half questions
我可能是自己一半愛你一半恨 Perhaps half of me loves you while the other half hates you

這離別是我靈感的秤砣 This separation weighs heavy on my soul
我內心的痛是不對等的沈默 The pain inside is an uneven silence
思念是困住我倆的繩索 Missing you is the rope that still connects us
就算血肉模糊我也沒辦法掙脫 Even if its unclear whether we are flesh and blood I can’t let go
完美的你終於接受放過剩下的我走 The perfect you has finally accepted and left me behind
我接受這結果 I accept this ending
你畫的傑作我找不到線索 Of your masterpiece I can’t find the hints
像被牽著走 I’m being pulled along

但是我不想要一半一半一半一半 But I don’t want to be in halves halves halves halves
可我們倆這一段一段已斷已斷 But both of us are in parts already broken
街上的路燈一盞一盞一閃一閃 The lights on the road one lamp one flash
眼淚滴在路上一瓣一瓣一瓣一瓣 Tears fall onto the road petal by petal
可是我不想要一半一半一半一半 But I don’t want to be in halves halves halves halves
我深陷在一邊喜歡一邊離開 I’ve fallen into liking and leaving
他們問我丟掉了太多遺不遺憾 They ask me I’ve thrown away too much, if I regret it
一半一半 Half half

在浪漫還有現實之間作鬥爭 Battling between romance and reality
我是脆弱的可面對你我不敢疼 I’m weak and can’t bear to face you and feel pain
我思來想去誰的對錯有可能 Thinking over and over who’s right or wrong
在不完整的馬拉松里也只有時間獲勝 On this unfinished marathon only time wins
一半包扎一半被留下傷疤 Half bandaging wounds half leaving scars
一半在冷言相對另一半在不斷講話 Half in Cold War and half talking unendingly
我知道這些矛盾都是愛在拱火 I know these conflicts are love fanning the flames
我想要找到平衡於是對著麥克風說 I want to find balance so I’m saying to the microphone

Marry
我知道你在 I know you’re there
我已經習慣了平淡 I’ve gotten used to the mundane
我感受不到你的脈絡 I can’t feel your veins
可能這是我最大遺憾 Perhaps this is my biggest regret
我知道除了痛以外 I know other than pain
以前經歷過的幸福那也算 All the happiness we felt before matters too
這個世界沒純粹的恨與愛 This world doesn’t have pure love or hate
更多的是一半一半 Everything is in halves
沒機會重來一遍 There is no chance to start over
沒機會讓我能多看一眼 No chance to let me see you once more
沒機會能和你能討論 No chance to discuss with you
如果我們再勇敢一點 If we were a little braver
我想要克服懦弱是我的超能力 I want to defeat the weakness, it’s my superpower
下決心不能回頭我是我最大的矛盾體 To decide not to look back is my biggest dilemma

後來我繼續rap and rap So I kept rapping and rapping
我告訴我心不疼 I told myself my heart was not in pain
越來越多的back to back Kept packing my schedule back to back
你身邊也換了位新的人 You have someone new by your side
思念斷又不斷 I miss you unendingly
我感受到變兩半的身體 I feel like a body in two parts
一半在恨在念舊 Half hating and stuck in the memories
另一半走向了新的路程 Other half walking towards a new path
夜裡的眼淚太苦了 The tears that come at night are too bitter
對我來說有點不下酒 Doesn’t go well with alcohol
我把上個我放原地 I put the previous version of me at the beginning
繼續自己往下走 Continuing to push forth myself
我問自己 I ask myself
你給的愛是不是我不想要的那種 Is the love you gave what I don’t want
So please don’t calling my phone
我想要完整的我because i know I want the most complete version of myself because I know